truth.

It’s pretty embarrassing but,

I have friends who I spend time with, the more I feel like they will be my life buddies until we’re old and wrinkly. I appreciate you being my friend & all … Mucho love to all ma sistas <3 Thanks for putting up with me all the times. ;) I’m glad God helped us to tolerate each other hahaha jay kay~. you know who you are :D

Speech isn’t the only form of communication.

Sometimes, we do not have a clue about why things happen for the way they do.

Some non-Christians live easier, better lives, and at the same time, some faithful people endure pain and misery.

Things happen according to HIS PLAN, and only God knows the deeper meaning behind these. We only see things through our worldly eyes, and we will never understand God’s motives for He does not give “[…] as the world gives” (John 14:27)

For God has even provided his precious son to save us, why would he let us astray?

His love is infinite and merciful, yet as human beings we cannot perceive the extent of his love, because we are blinded by sin.

There are so many false prophesies out there in the world today, and we easily question our beliefs and faith. 

…

We have his word, the bible - the truth. Why are we hindered by such worldly ideals when we have a strong weapon that God himself had handed to us?

For crying out loud, the Bible is indeed our guide to life. How many times have you, honestly (including myself), have read the bible in the past week or even month?


I am shameful. 


Bible should never be a burden or merely a task to read. It’s a gift, and we should gladly cherish it.

When there is doubt, turn to bible. Bible has all answers to life. After all, God created us, and he should know all about life than we ever will.

Sometimes God pushes us to our limits. It’s because he has greater faith in us than we have in ourselves.

Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours

 (Mark 11:24)

(Source: sugarinyourcoffe)


If I was allowed to… ;)

Dissocial Personality Disorder.


The World Health Organization’s International Statistical Classification of Diseases and Related Health Problems, tenth edition (ICD-10), defines a conceptually similar disorder to antisocial personality disorder called Dissocial personality disorder.

It is characterized by at least 3 of the following:

  1. Callous unconcern for the feelings of others
  2. Gross and persistent attitude of irresponsibility and disregard for social norms, rules, and obligations.
  3. Incapacity to maintain enduring relationships, though having no difficulty in establishing them
  4. Very low tolerance to frustration and a low threshold for discharge of aggression, including violence.
  5. Incapacity to experience guilt or to profit from experience, particularly punishment.
  6. Markedly prone to blame others or to offer plausible rationalizations for the behavior that has brought the person into conflict with society



…. Say what.  Sounds like me.

These days I realize- How bad of a person I have been to others.
What a hypocrite I must have been. I’m more than shameful.
This is probably what God was trying to tell me. Stop hurting your precious brothers and sisters…
I now realize how carelessly I have hurt so many of my friends’ feelings without knowing. I joke around too much, and in the end leave people with bitter feelings. 
I hate myself for being like that. Sometimes, I don’t know how to truly show my feelings. It’s as if the closer a friend gets to me, I joke around too harshly but mean nothing of it. The things I say and do, I don’t realize I’m doing it until they actually show that they are hurt inside and I regret the things I had said.
Sometimes I get really excited to meet the person and feel embarrassed that the person might find out how much I like them (as a friend) that I think I have to act more mean so they won’t find out that I feel that way…

These days I get so wrapped up in what I’m thinking about that I tend not to notice other people’s feelings, at least not right away.
Which thus explains my ignorance and selfishness.
I am going to change, apologize, and ask God for forgiveness…


God provides joy.

Flaws motivate one to achieve higher goals.

wanna get on the runway train.

Life casually freaks me out  :)

Even though you feel like you’re at the same place again and again.



With the things that are going on in my life currently, I asked myself “Why?”

It seemed to me that everything I did went wrong, and I did not understand why those things were happening to me. Better yet, I asked God, “Why? Why, Lord? Why are these things happening to me? I asked you to give me strength and wisdom when I needed it. To overcome the obstacles and succeed, to glorify your name, I prayed dearly. Lord, haven’t I always been faithful to you? Except the times that I have withdrew away from you and tried to hide my feelings, you already knew and you were always listening to my whimpering cries. Why? Why do I feel that you are not with me and nothing is going right?”… He gave me no answers.

I thought to myself. Why am I coming here in the darkness again and again. Why do I fall away from God so easily when times get real tough, even though it’s just a phase? Was I spiritually so weak that I was getting punished in a way? How much do I have to ask God for faith that was so strong so that I might just be so close to him and keep that deep relationship with Him?

At this moment, he spoke to me, “My daughter, why are you thinking of foolish thoughts? Don’t you know that when you are crying, my heart breaks into pieces? I would never want anything bad for you my child. You are not going back to the same place over and over again. Don’t you know that I am carving you and molding you to become the tool I want to use for the plans I have made for you? Because I love you so much, I am telling you to stay by my side. Pray and do not be hindered. I am always with you. I listen to your deepest thoughts, and your prayers are never wasted.“ 

I was … shameful. He knew my every thoughts and every painful things I had and was going through. With these things he was teaching me how to become the person I was to be. How could I ever do his works he has planned for me to do in the future when I can’t even overcome the obstacles I was faced with now? To do his works, I had to learn to become the tool. With scars here and there, I was growing, little by little, taking baby steps closer to him. I was not repeating the same mistakes, yet I was learning from mine.

Realizing that I had family and friends who were constantly praying for me, the holy spirit was telling me he is indeed alive and watching my every move. With so much love from the father, all my burdens and emotional hindrance vanished. My obstacles never seemed so small whenever I thought of the things I would be doing for God in the future. With prayer, petition, perseverance, and passion for God, I will carry out my cross- the things that are assigned to me.

I know walking the path of Christian life is not going to be easy. Obstacles will repeatedly visit me, and every time, here and there I will falter. But also, I will learn. I will learn to grow mentally, and spiritually. 

Because he has given me the heart to pray about people just like me, people who have doubts, and even people who are going through hardships and painful experiences, I pray for every one. With a humble mind and heart, I pray and give thanks. With all things in life, he is indeed the key to every possible situation. Don’t give up on him. He will never let you down. 

Because I know my savior lives, Don’t lose faith.


And because he is waiting for you talk to him, even now.

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
John 14:27 NIV